Grateful.

I got a piece of news today that several months ago would have made me feel indignant.  I would have felt angry, upset and just plain wronged.  I waited for all those feelings and more to kick in, so that I could tell myself again that it's for the best...

But then they didn't kick in... and I realized that instead of angry, I was feeling peace and acceptance.  That I'm finally past this--life lived, experience gained and lessons learned--and I am happy.  Things have ways of working out like they're supposed to and I am happy and thankful and grateful for that.

And when I say that, I can't help but think of American Beauty, when Lester says: "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life..."

Right now I can't feel anything but gratitude because I know I'm where I'm supposed to be, and how can I be angry about that?  And for that, I am grateful.

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Life.

I've been thinking a lot about life lately.  Well, I think about life all the time.  I think about where I've been, I think about where I am now and sometimes I like to think about where I might be going.

I've had a lot of nights lately that have kept me awake at night in anticipation, because I can't help but being so excited for the future.  What's next?  Here be dragons.

The Sea v 2.0

"The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea." - Isak Dinesan

(picture. quote.)