Halfway to Alaska

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Sunday, April 3, 2011

After months (okay, or years) of battling my sound card and blue screen memory dumps, I took the plunge today and purchased a new laptop! Not the highest tech gadget or the specialty built computer I really want and wish I could afford, but I got an incredible price for what I need (e-mail and watch tv shows) for now. Yay! I get to pick it up in-store tomorrow... I can't wait!!

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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Grateful.

I got a piece of news today that several months ago would have made me feel indignant. I would have felt angry, upset and just plain wronged. I waited for all those feelings and more to kick in, so that I could tell myself again that it's for the best...

But then they didn't kick in... and I realized that instead of angry, I was feeling peace and acceptance. That I'm finally past this--life lived, experience gained and lessons learned--and I am happy. Things have ways of working out like they're supposed to and I am happy and thankful and grateful for that.

And when I say that, I can't help but think of American Beauty, when Lester says: "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life..."

Right now I can't feel anything but gratitude because I know I'm where I'm supposed to be, and how can I be angry about that? And for that, I am grateful.

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Friday, March 4, 2011

Life.

I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Well, I think about life all the time. I think about where I've been, I think about where I am now and sometimes I like to think about where I might be going.

I've had a lot of nights lately that have kept me awake at night in anticipation, because I can't help but being so excited for the future. What's next? Here be dragons.